Update

It's been a long time since I've been on here. Been going through lots of changes. Find myself single still. Started a new job at Guild Mortgage. Feels good to be back in the business after 5 years. Lucky has been clean almost 8 months now. He is living at home with me, most of the time I enjoy having him here.lol... He is working woooo hoooo! I still have moments that I miss Rob...but there's nothing that I can do about that. I have been dating off and on, which really stinks at my age. Enough for now, will be back soon :)

Major Victory

Today God has blessed my son with a major victory. He got a full time job working for an excavating company.  He's been feeling over whelmed about his money issues & not being able to find a job.  His sponsor gave him glowing recommendation and he starts next week. I am so excited and proud of Lucky.

Another victory Lucky has had is being clean for 5 months. He's doing so well living up in Seattle. Staying away from his old friends. I'm feeling so blessed and thank god for all his blessing he has given my son & I

I am an adult!!!!! Don't tell me who I should love!!!!!

Sorry I need to vent:  The last few days I have been feeling sad because I miss someone who is very special to me. Lately people close to me keep telling me to move on...Why do you still love him? Do you love him or do you love the thought of him taking care of you! All of these statements make me so angry.  I Love "R" with all my heart & soul. I do not need him to take care of me. I am perfectly capable of taking care of myself.  I did before he was here and I will do it now.

Listen to my words people the last time I checked,  I am a 41 year old grown woman who is capable of deciding who I love and don't love.  This is my life not yours! If I have a chance to mend the relationship I had with "R" I'm going to do it. This relationship did not end just because of him. We both had our part in it failing.  Right now I am giving him the space he needs to figure out his life. I know God brought us together for a reason. If its meant to be only time will tell.  I pray that my wish comes true some day.

Please stop meddling in my life and worry about yourself.  Thank You & God Bless

Life Moves On!

You can either move on with your life or dwell on things you can't change. But either way, life does move on, with or without you. When a relationship or something ends, look at it as being pushed out so you can be pushed up. It may not feel good right now knowing you’ve got to start all over again. It may seem unfair and frightening,... but just begin to realize there is a reason and season for everything. Great things, new things can happen if you can just hold on to your faith, positive attitude and self-determination to rise again. Sometimes a kick in the butt pushes us forward. Let’s move on from here.
~Lucera Galthikhor Alrmond~

Fathers Day

I thought of you today, but that is nothing new. There isn't a day that goes by since you have passed that I don't think of you.  I think of you in silence and often speak your name.

On this fathers day all I have are memories, your picture in a frame and your cowboy hat hanging on the wall.  Your memory is my keepsake which I will never part with.

God has you in his keeping. I will always have you in my heart!

Clean & Sober

My son came to see me today =) He's happy, clean and looking good. I'm feeling so blessed that he's doing well. As of today he has 84 days clean & sober.

Be Positive

Positive minds produce positive lives. Negative minds produce negative lives. Positive thoughts are always full of faith and hope. Negative thoughts are always full of fear and doubt.